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I wish I’d been born
With a silver spoon in my mouth,
A legacy of doctors,
That I’d wanna follow,
And a wardrobe of shades,
Neutralities of gray,
But when all is said and done,
I wouldn’t change a thing,
All I’d hope,
Is to still find you here.

I’ve kissed and I’ve stumbled,
Been bruised and I’ve stuttered,
In my dreams words fly,
In narrow pastel ghettoes,
And I still don’t know who I am.

Everywhere I turn,
I’m cast in foreign molds,
Half numb as not to feel,
Unknowingly, I paint,
Bar codes on my neck,
Hide as not to face
But the shadows still haunt me in air.
With the reality
That I still don’t belong.

Strung out on a dream,
Of cobalt black lips,
And my fears pierce my side,
Like my ghosts live in corners,
Survivor before crusader,
And yet, when all is said and done,
I wouldn’t change a thing,
All I’d hope,
Is to still find you here.

From the vault of my teenage years.

I want my kisses
to slide off your body
like infused molasses
enamored with your softness

I want to feel the heat of your skin
Dissipate like the peaking sun heals
A rainy summer afternoon

I want the hairs on the back of your neck
To sway to the beat of my hips,
Requete-pun-pun,
The Incan call of my soul

I want you to carry my love
Like an onyx in your pocket,
A talisman in a sea of,
Of corrupt influences

I want you to dream me.
Drink me,
Miss me like a dog without a master
Miss me,
so that your everyday is incomplete without me

I want to tell you that I love you

Living without you is,

a sorrowful sigh and a shiver of loneliness
it’s three nigths of helpless insomnia
a month of confusion
and a lifetime of regret
it is the torment of my solitude with a sea of silence
it’s a bitter and stale coffee, swallowed hard on an empty soul
it’s a paper without news with words that have no meaning
it is a timeless day and an endless death
it’s a drop of rain without a sound
film with no screen
and a lack of music that confuses this old land

because without you
there is no warmth to an embrace
no sensuality to a kiss
no escape to a sweet touch

Living without you, is…impossible.

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Love falls from you in waterfall abundance
Love falls from you like honey rain thunders
You make me feel awe and heaven’s wonder

Your love wraps me in Calico
And smells like rain
Falls like roses on desert thirst
Unsettles all meandering things

You kiss my tears
And smother my pains
You break all fears
And council my change
Your love makes me strong
Cemented in happiness
You fight in my ring
Always by my side

Priceless love
So beautiful, your love
More Beautiful than roses
You are so beautiful to me