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My friend once told me to be la clau, la che. La che? This is short for a string of Spanish curse words that can be summarized to have courage no matter what. So when I saw this on Gunfighter’s blog, I thought it was a good opportunity to get to know me.

I am : Honest, strong, loyal, philosophical, writer, dancer and lover of life that’s traveling the world and enjoying life to the fullest. I would add opinionated, but it is not an English word.

I think: That the easiest thing is to hurt yourself and the hardest thing to do is hurt others. It’s a sign of maturity to understand that hurting yourself is the same as hurting others. I think humans are essentially good inside.

I know: That the present is a succession of moments from the past but if you continuously live in the present, no one will like you.

I have: Tell me the frigg’n truth or I’ll choke you attitude…sometimes a little high strung

I wish: I could enjoy my high school smoking body again and not have my desires limited by cash or time….hmmm, all those sexy shoes

I hate: When I get hit walking on the sidewalk because people don’t know how to drive…road rage.

I miss: Colombian food. Though I am figuring things out through alot of trial and error, I still can’t cook my grandmother’s beans!

I fear: a single future, the destruction of the Earth and a heart made of stone

I hear: the song of the mountains on fall rainy days and the rustle of the reeds from the rice crops.

I smell: everything. My nose works very well.

I crave: the security of a good partner.

I search: the truth and my fourth degree black belt in Seoul.

I wonder: how I would be if I had gone into the military when the chance was offered.

I regret: not marrying my second love, JD, one of the best relationships I’ve had. Too bad hindsight isn’t foresight.

I love: Tom Waits, dogs, my friends, my home, me…everything that has transparency, intent, honesty, love and purpose

I ache: from running a 5k on 35 min, but it’s not like the aching is gonna go away, I gotta hit at least 20 min.

I am not: dishonest.

I believe: In the saving grace of Christ and the code of a warrior

I dance: like people say praise be to Christ. I love dancing!

I sing: only when I really have to and working on learnign a couple of Korean songs. I love “el rey.”

I cry: when children are born to parents who obviously do not want them, have the ability to take care of them and/or give them unhealthy bodies to start out their lives. I’m not sure if I cry or want to slap someone here but it feels the same.

I fight: great when provoked, but why do you want to see me that mad? Make love not war.

I win: 50/50…I don’t feel massive enough to conquer ground technique

I lose: my temper and volume with apathy and injustice. Hey, I’m making up for at least 5 voices that don’t speak and should.

I never: want to be unloved, poor enough to starve, stop thinking, contribute to society, writing because that’s how I make sense of the world and talk to God, have scabies again or loose my self pride.

I always: try to get 8 hours of sleep, and love the days when it’s 9. My insomnia is going away but there are always about 2 nights from the month when my mind gets the best of me.

I confuse: I confuse my family lots.

I listen: to the silence of the mountains and love the fact that when people talk to me their words are measured. It feels like the language of God, the transition from a dream and the logic of men.

I can: teach simply because I can learn. If I tame my impatience, I am the best student in the class. This doesn’t mean I am the most intelligent; I do not catch on instantaneously, but I hang on like a crab to raw chicken.

I am scared: of doubt and loosing the spell check function

I need: LOVE

I am happy: when I am with friends, dancing and living life to the fullest

I imagine: circumnavigating the world for a year or two on a racing yacht team.

Your turn.

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