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Anyone who says that life is clear,
Ain’t never seen a mirror
Talked to my mother,
Or met my ex

I lost a suitor today
‘Cuz I’m too thin,
He beamed and said,
“I knew you back when,”
When?
“Back when you was sexy,”
I laughed and left
Ain’t no winning for me here

I lost a suitor before
‘cuz I’m too thick
“That ain’t the way I met you,
That ain’t the way you been,”
I laughed and left
Ain’t no winning for me there

I picked up a cigarette
And told myself to smoke
I felt the sounds of Didgeridoos
And the currents rushing in

I woke up the next morning
Craving just one more
I laughed and
Promised one next week

Sometimes there’s just no winning
No breaking even
Just a giving in
So I laugh and wonder
Where the wind will wish
What I’ll be giving in

To Bukowski, this freedom, this explosion from the gut, was his reason to write.